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Currently Watching Best of Friends Season 2 By David Schwimmer see related

things are changing..it's just different..

sigh!

[edit.] notice the exclamation point after my sigh.  my roommate said that it was too depressing and that i should add it. she also likes to make fun of me and destroy my things. i should make a post all about her [and write the quotes she says..ha! take that!] sometime. anywho, enough babbling. a new post will be coming soon..but this post still states how i feel towards so much, but now it has an exclamation point after my sigh so i guess it's better.

it's a relationship, folks.  an absolutely amazing relationship.

[edit] i'm talking about a relationship with God..just that it's not about what we can or can not do but rather this amazing and intimate relationship with our Creator.  so don't worry, this post is not about a boy..i'm still definitely single.

Currently Listening Wicked (2003 Original Broadway Cast) see related

do you ever frustrate yourself like crazy?  that's how i'm feeling right now..i've felt great about things for awhile now, and i've been so happy.  but now things are getting to me..realizing things about myself that i don't really like..wanting to change but also wanting to remain comfortable.  i hate not having control of everything going on in my life.  i want to know things..i hate having some of these feelings and not knowing how it's going to end up. i wish that i could just get rid of these feelings and move on, but they just keep coming back.  and, by the way, this isn't all about a boy. i feel like there's so much more..

why can't i just take that step and let it all go?

i realized that i am growing and i am learning..but there are still these times along the way where i stumble and trip, and i need to get up and brush myself off, learning to depend on God more+more.

i can't really experience life the best way by remaining comfortable and in my own bubble.  i need to take that step..i need to give it all to God and enjoy this adventure.

please, God, give me love and teach me to enjoy the journey and adventure You are taking me on.

"in the book of life, the answers aren't in the back."
                     -charlie brown

i love coffee..i love college..i love friends..i love being a sophomore..and i love building back old relationships.

there are still doubts, worries, and times of overanalyzing. things drive me crazy. i hate who i am sometimes and can't seem to get over things. but..i'm learning. slowly but surely.

i love being back.